Today there are no words, just St. Patrick’s Day French Bread Pizzas to be made and eaten. My heart is rather heavy today, as is all of ours, here in this hospital room. We are going on day 7 now of hospice care and just when you think it can’t get any worse, you wake up to another day that proves you wrong. The emptiness my mom already leaves in my life, though we are on our last days here, only shows the incredible space she took up while she was thriving. Man, she was larger than life.
She was a rainbow: Beautiful and full of color, just like these gluten free bagels. No matter how angry I get at the thought of what I think is losing my mom too soon, I easily calm down and become thankful because there are a lot of people who will never know the deep love of their mother. I think I had the experience of at least 1000 mother’s love all combined into one. For that, I am so thankful.
And I’m so grateful she was at my wedding this past September. I felt this tremendous need to have a quick turnaround once my now-husband and I got engaged.
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St. Patrick’s Day French Bread Pizzas
- Prep Time: 10 mins
- Cook Time: 15 mins
- Total Time: 25 mins
- Yield: 4 French Bread Pizzas 1x
Ingredients
- 2 gluten free rolls, halved (I used Schar’s rolls)
- pizza sauce
- nondairy cheese
- red, orange, yellow, and green bell pepper slices
- cauliflower florets
Instructions
- Preheat your oven to 400 degrees.
- Slather the rolls with pizza sauce and cover with cheese of choice.
- Add the veggies in full rainbow style.
- Place on a cookie sheet and bake for approx. 15 minutes or until the crusts and veggies are lightly browned and the cheese melts.
It felt a bit strange and something I couldn’t put into words at the time why I have trying to get the wedding put together in less than 5 months but I knew that if we didn’t get married in the fall, it wouldn’t have happened until mid this year. I pushed hard for fall and now I understand why.
My soul has known that this moment was coming. Don’t ask me how because I have no idea myself but as I look back on the past 6 months especially, I can see how I was already mourning this day in ways that I cannot explain. Feeling so grateful that I fought for a fall wedding and this Rainbow of Color watched me walk down the aisle and that we danced our way into the night.
No words…probably because my brother, sister, and I are out of breath after we just blasted some Michael Jackson’s Thriller at my mom’s bedside while we had dance party with her smile brightly on her left side. God, I love my family.
So very sorry for what you and your family are going through. I experienced the same thing 9 months ago. God Bless.
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I just love that photo of you and your Mom. You look so much like her. She must be so proud of you. Thanks for your wonderful creativity with food that you share so freely.
Caring thoughts coming your way.
Your mom is an incredible woman – full of love for God and her family. She shared with me the story about the dress she wore at your wedding! and the wedding! She is very proud of you, Sherry, Scott and grandkids. May God give you comfort during this difficult time.
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When we exited the church after the funeral mass for my dad two months ago there was literally a beautiful rainbow in the sky. Your post today reminded me of that … the rainbow felt like my dad was watching over us and his love will always be with us.
I am so glad you have your memories of your mom at your wedding.
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Your creativity with food always manages to surprise me. I love that you used cauliflower as clouds.
I just wanted to say how much I appreciate your post at this difficult time. I list my mum to cancer 5 years ago. It was the worst thing I could have imagined, at first there was some relief she at last was at peace, but it dosen’t stop the empty feeling. Say your long goodbye whilst you can- say thank you- tell her she is the rainbow. I love these and I love what you have said. You are very brave, good luck over the next few days xxx
Oh Cara, my heart breaks for you at this difficult time. Your love for your mother shines as brightly as that pizza’s colors. No doubt you are the sunshine that makes her rainbow so beautiful. Sending love.
Tasty and healthy! That’s how pizza should be made!
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First time in this site and I love it. Trying to educate myself to eat healthy–with my son’s help. True, family is to be loved, as is every minute you share with your beautiful mom here. It may seem hard now but be calm. Passing away is part of life too. We all will. Enjoy her and know she will always be with you in every step of your life. She is in your genes, your memories, your love and experience of life. Be grateful. Let her know. Be happy.
That portrait of you and your mom is stunning. You are both radiating pure happiness and love for one another. What a wonderful memory.
Aw, so sorry to hear about your mom. I can’t even imagine how tough that is. 🙂
Love the rainbow pizzas. Those are beautiful!